Wednesday, April 29, 2015

Feeling Good...

It has been a long time since I've talked about anything writing related. I don't have any major news (yet), but I'm relieved that today, officially, I have the rights to The Mistress reverted back to me. I won't get into the details about why things didn't work out with the publisher that had it. Some of you know about it, but the rest who don't, well, it doesn't really matter anymore now. I'm just happy that it's mine, and I can develop the rest of it any way that I wish. Sure, I'm a tad bit disappointed that yet again things fell through with getting this thing published, and once again it doesn't have a home. It still has never been published, know, I'm honestly in no real rush or hurry to get The Mistress out there. The book is special to me in that 1) it's my first novel ever and 2) it's the only book that I've written that delves so deep and personal into my intersex experience/identity. I might take the self-publishing route with it, but then again, I'm not sure if self-publishing is for me, because financially I couldn't afford it, and because I personally want the book to be with a publisher who can try and get this book into reader's hands, and preferably, in print. I have options, which is why I'm not stressing over it really. When I'll continue to work and build on it from where I left off at Chapter 6, I'm not sure. It might sound silly, but I'm still recovering from The Man on Top of the World that outside of writing movie reviews, I haven't been driven to write or rewrite. I'm still in my "input" stage, and I'm loving it, enjoying life and not letting writing be my life. But let me tell you, something about The Mistress being free has lifted this huge weight off my shoulders. I didn't realize just how much it weighed on me until now, and now, I feel FREE. This year so far has been ROUGH, with many highs, but many lows too. I'm still hanging in there, and just...taking each day at a time. My hope and optimism keeps me sane through it all, and that's a blessing. I'm learning, doing my best to not take any blow personally or seriously, not only in the publishing world, but any world, really, outside of it. I have not a clue what the future holds, but...every day is always a new day.


  1. I would love to read your Mistress manuscript if/when you decide what route to go with it. I'm sure it just wasn't at the right place and possibly wasn't the right time. The first book will always be the most special--same in my experience, too! I ended up self-publishing mine (a trilogy under a dif pen name).

    Life is so many ups and downs...but not taking things personally can be a total life-changer. If someone does not act in a way you want them to, simply by understanding that everyone is living in their own story and it's not about us, that sort of thinking can change your life. I got introduced to the idea several years ago through the Four Agreements books, and it has helped me avoid so much hurt feelings and drama that I'd recommend that way of thinking to anybody.

    Just keep being you and follow your intuition. You will find your answers; I have full faith! :)

    1. Yeah, it's partly just bad luck, but also partly just...not the right time, and in this case, it really is for the best since the publisher just isn't for me, the book deserves a better place. I had to be an adult pretty quickly since a kid so the don't take anything personal way of thinking is kind of second nature, doesn't mean that I'm like invincible or something, but now that I'm older, I really just don't stress or worry too much about things that I really have no control of, like other people, or some situations. I can only control my actions and my way of thinking, all else, they are who they are or what they are. Thank you for the support and encouragement, you're so sweet, your words mean a lot! <3

    2. You are welcome :) You're one of the coolest people I talk to online! I always look forward to your posts and tweets, and you're a heck of a writer. Yes, it's true that we are not invincible... Sometimes the things people say and do can slam us out of nowhere and hurt, but we can say "ouch" and instead of retaliating or brooding, we can take a step back and say to ourselves, "It's not about me," and that sometimes takes the worst of the sting out.

    3. D'aww, shucks, thank you! <3 Love ya, and your writing, and you as a person, just so lovely and a ray of cyber sunshine hehe.

      Yeah even strong people have moments of just...being hurt, angry, etc. on the inside, but I channel that negativity into positive thinking and positive action, because that's really imho the best choice to make versus saying or doing things that make situations worse or makes you look bad lol. Plus it really is too easy to succumb to negativity, but it's no fun, life's too short, and there's just no sense in making things worse, lol. Stress can be a killer sometimes, but only if you let it! Thankfully, nobody is alone in this world, so...we'll all be alright, ;).

    4. You got it! Email me anytime if you need someone to talk to. **hugs**

    5. Thank you, my friend, I will! I enjoy your emails, if you need someone to talk to, or just want to talk for the heck of it, you know how to reach me! *hugs*